A new painting

Things are moving very slow. It has been a month that Ethan wouldn’t go to bed in the night. He is too young to understand day and night. Sometimes I feel his day is not 24 hours. One day it’s 20 hours, another is 18, then a following active 48 hours. I slowly adjusted myself to follow his schedule with music, movie, painting, and tons cups of coffee. Not much reading.

Overall he is so lovely. He already starts to call “mama”, “papa”, “oh pa”, “oh ha”, “ah boo”, “moo moo”, etc. etc. He can flip to his tummy and stay playing toys in tummy time. He loves to use his legs and feet to attempt standing and jumping. Also, he loves to observe anything everything.

It’s unfinished. I was very anxious about painting slowly. I know stuck on one piece for too long will lost the feeling of it. However, when looking at Ethan, I enjoy every little step of advancing he made. Therefore, I want myself to enjoy every precious time I saved for painting too, instead of wasting my mind on worrying. Also I believe as long as one really be there and remains there with ones work, the sense will not be lost so easily, and the intuitions and insights will be approached eventually.

The First Painting

Time flies. I checked the calendar and saw I posted almost a month ago. No doubt I was very busy. However, things are getting into orders and I, finally, finished first painting.

It seems that I can’t get enough time for sketching and planing. So I just go ahead and pick up my oil brushes. The good thing is because I am thinking about drawings and paintings all the time, and I am observing Ethan all the time, so I “sketch” in my mind all the time, which might help.

Now looking back to when I started the Artist Residency in Motherhood, reread the qestionnarie I did, I feel things are getting better. 🙂

Here attached my manifesto for myself as an artist @ARIM.

In the past, many artists told me that I should not have children if you want to be an artist. I understand why, and partly I agree with them. However at the same time, I disagree. Because becoming a mom is also one of my dreams. I do not think my dream of being an artist is against the dream of being a mom. I want to be both, and I want to be good at both.

Now, with my son in my arms, there are moments, I feel so calm and confident, like the time stopped, like the whole world did not exist. I feel so powerful and so insignificant at the same time. I hope time flies and time freezes at the same time. I am so exhausted but so excited at the same time. I am grateful to life and awed by life at the same time. For all those feelings, I believe they can help me become a better artist, a better painter that I wish to be.

Therefore, I will undergo this self-imposed artist residency in order to fully experience and explore the fragmented focus, nap-length studio time, limited movement and resources and general upheaval that parenthood brings and allow it to shape the direction of my work, rather than working against it.

Qing

09/06/2017

More paintings are coming. :))

Self Portrait with Mirror

Self-Portrait, Oil on Canvas, 27 x 21 inches, 2017

Self-Portrait, Oil on Canvas, 27 x 21 inches, 2017

Sketchbook

Watercolor on Sketchbook, watercolor on paper, Qing Song, 2016

Watercolor on Sketchbook, watercolor on paper, Qing Song, 2016

 

I believe that any person’s real experience is always meaningful, always fresh, and never becomes a cliche.

Refrigerator

Girl with Refrigerator, watercolor on paper, 30 x 23 inches, 2016, Qing Song

 

Girl with Phone Light

New Watercolor Paintings

Girl with Phone Light, Watercolor Painting by Qing Song, 2016, 30 x 23 inches.

Girl with Phone Light, Watercolor Painting by Qing Song, 2016, 30 x 23 inches.

August Portrait 


I’m so exhausted when finished this painting. Exhausted l, but happy. 😊

The Balcony 


This month, things just move slow. I’m afraid of lots of things. Nightmare after nightmare. I don’t like this wood panel surface, will go back to canvas for sure. But before that, I don’t want to give up. 

Be strong! Hold on! 

July Potrait III

I stopped for several days on this painting before could finish it. Something just went wrong and I have to walk away from it. During the break I visited museum to see some master pieces. Got some peace in my heart.

I am happy with the final result. Photo is okay, maybe too much details of the wood panel surface. The painting itself looks better. I am not a very good photographer, tried my best.

Next one I will add some body part. Sometimes I ask myself what am I doing here? Why these portraits again and again. I couldn’t find the answer until I am tired of doing it.

Oil Painting on Wood Panel, 10 x 8 inches, Qing Song, 2016

Oil Painting on Wood Panel, 10 x 8 inches, Qing Song, 2016

July Portrait II

This is a tough one. Took me a loooooooong time to fix everything. Still feel headache when it is done. Let time tell me it is okay or not…

Mu II, Oil on Wood, Qing Song, 2016

Mu II, Oil on Wood, Qing Song, 2016